Demi Moore went all out in her new memoir ‘Inside Out’ as she dropped some bombshell confession of her turbulent relationship with her ex-husband, Ashton Kutcher and others.
The book which was released on Tuesday September 24, prompted a media tour as the actress revealed being the victim of sexual assault, her turbulent years with ex-husband Ashton Kutcher and her spiral into alcohol and substance abuse.
Demi began her story by discussing her troubled childhood. She recounted digging pills out of the mouth of her teenage mother at the age of 12 and being taken to bars to get attention from men by her suicidal mother. This led to her being sexually assaulted by a man her mother knew. The man claimed that her mother “whored” her out for $500.
“I don’t think it was a straightforward transaction, but she still did give him the access and put me in harm’s way,” she told ABC’s Diane Sawyer.
Her mother battled alcoholism and suicide at that time and she also learnt that the man she thought was her dad wasn’t her biological father. The traumatic incident made her believe that she “wasn’t wanted” and she didn’t “deserve to be here.”
The actress also believes that she took fellow actor, Jon Cryer’s virginitywhile they were on set of 1984’s No Small Affair.
“I played a young nightclub singer, and Jon Cryer played the nineteen-year-old photographer who falls in love with her, in his first movie role,” Moore wrote.
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Jon fell for me in real life, too, and lost his virginity to me while we were making that movie.”
She continued,
“It pains me to think of how callous I was with his feelings — that I stole what could have been such an important and beautiful moment from him.”
Jon Cryer however denied the claim in a tweet which read;
“Well, the good thing about this is she doesn’t have to feel bad about it anymore, because while I’m sure she was totally justified making that assumption based on my my [sic] skill level (and the stunned look on my face at the time), I had actually lost my virginity in high school.”
He did, however, confirm that she was right about one thing:
“I was over the moon for her during a very troubled time in her life,” he added. “I have nothing but affection for her and not a regret in the world.”
The actress also talked about cheating on Freddy Moore who she was married to for 5 years in her memoir. According to her, she was just 18 when they married got in 1980 she cheated on him shortly before tying the knot.
“The night before we got married, instead of working on my vows, I was calling a guy I’d met on a movie set,” Moore wrote. “
I snuck out of my own bachelorette party and went to his apartment.”
“Why did I do that? Why didn’t I go and see the man I was committing to spend the rest of my life with to express my doubts? Because I couldn’t face the fact that I was getting married to distract myself from grieving the death of my father,” she continued. “Because I felt there was no room to question what I’d already put in motion. I couldn’t get out of the marriage, but I could sabotage it.”
She went on to share details of her marriage to Bruce Willis which lasted for 13 years (1987-2000). The actress said he felt her career was making her take so much time away from the family and that made him unsure of their marriage.
On her marriage with Bruce who she has three daughters with, Moore wrote,
“It’s a funny thing to say, but I’m very proud of our divorce.”
“I think Bruce was fearful at the beginning that I was going to make our split difficult, and that I would express my anger and whatever baggage that I had from our marriage by obstructing his access to the kids — that I’d turn to all of those ploys divorcing couples use as weapons,” she continued. “But I didn’t, and neither did he.”
Moore admitted the split “wasn’t easy at first, but we managed to move the heart of our relationship, the heart of what created out family, into something new that gave the girls a loving, supportive environment with both parents.”
In fact, Moore said,
“We felt more connected than we did before the divorce.”
Also narrating all that happened in her 8 year marriage to her much-younger ex-husband Ashton Kutcher, the “G.I. Jane” star said she was coerced into threesomes that left her with feelings of “shame.”
“I put him first,” Moore wrote. “So when he expressed his fantasy of bringing a third person into our bed, I didn’t say no. I wanted to show him how great and fun I could be.”
Although Moore said the women who participated in the threesomes were “good people,” she called the experiences “a mistake.”
“Because we had brought in a third party into our relationship, Ashton said, that blurred the lines and, to some extent, justified what he’s done,” Moore wrote of her former husband’s alleged cheating.
On her “gradual downward spiral” during her 45th birthday trip to Mexico, Demi said Kutcher took a drunken photo of her to shame her. She revealed that she started drinking heavily and was “passing out and slipping under the water” in a hot tub, an act which made Kutcher who carried her back to bed furious.
“Ashton had encouraged me to go in this direction. When I went too far, though, he let me know how he felt by showing a picture he’d taken of me resting my head on the toilet the night before,” she wrote. “It seemed like a good-natured joke at the time. But it was really just shaming.”
The actress lost a 6-months pregnancy, following a miscarriage she suffered 2 years into her marriage to Kutcher.
“I can’t even really bring fully to words how lost, empty, desperate, confused … I really lost sight of everything that was right in front of me, which was the family that I had,” Moore said of her feelings after losing the child, a girl who she would have named Chaplin Ray.
After her divorce from Kutcher in 2013, she began abusing substances like Vicodin and alcohol. She revealed that her three daughters stopped speaking to her, and her former husband and friend, Bruce Willis, grew distant as well.
“I lost me,” Moore told Diane Sawyer during her Good Morning America interview. “I think the thing if I were to look back, I would say I blinded myself and I lost myself.”
